Welcoming Myself Back…

2020 has arrived and with it my desire of becoming a better blogger. When I started this journey back in 2016, I never once imagined the doors this would open me. I could have never imagined writing is now a paid thing that I do and one of my many jobs. And I can’t believe that after almost 20 years of writing and making stories up, I would be able to call this some sort of a job.

Now, with amazing things that come into your life, sometimes others are put on the back burner and you might lose touch with your roots. I think this has happened to me. I stopped writing here, stopped loving it. This was my happy place, the place where I was supposed to share whatever I felt like, whether someone was reading it or not. Even this, I’m writing this for myself. Getting the tips of my fingers used to writing again, just for the sake of writing. I’m not getting paid. I’m not on a deadline. I’m just typing and just being me…

I lost all this and 2019 was an incredible year with so many achievements but my creativity was put in a corner…

And 2020 started with lots of stress and lots of happiness too. We finally got our home, *we’re owners now! how crazy is that?!* but we’re still renovating it and it’s taking way longer than I had ever predicted. We’re living at my in-laws and even though we’re very thankful to them for having this option, we kind of just want to move into our home already. We want our privacy and not having to drive 1h twice a day to get to work and back. It’s been an intense 15 days to say the least.

But even though I’m exhausted and feel like I’m definitely catching up to those 26 years of life, I’m incredibly happy. I have a great feeling about 2020 and I love a good solid number! I’m predicting lots of surprises and amazing things this year and I can’t wait to experience them all.

I’d love to write about my goals for the year because as well as being a tradition of mine, I also really feel motivated when planning out my long-term year goals. But guess what? I haven’t even had the time to write them this year! I haven’t even put any thought into them!! Well, I do know I want to write more. Just write. 90% of what I’ll write won’t even be published. Just write. Let the words flow through my fingertips and cleanse my soul in the process. It’s a beautiful thing writing for the writing’s sake (not to quote Théophile Gautier or anything).

So, this is not a goal, not a deadline I’m giving myself, not gonna stress over this. But it’s a promise. I’m welcoming myself back into the writing world.

Chat away!